Merry christmas all!
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Wednesday, 25 December 2013
Friday, 20 December 2013
Lazy parenting
Haven't blogged so much lately. Orson feeds much more quickly now, and is
hugely distractable so I'm actually in some ways missing the days when I
was stuck on the sofa with one free hand for an hour at a time several
times a day.
Orson has been a delightfully easy baby so far, and I'm trying to
stay aware of how lucky I am in that respect. He rarely cries, always
smiles, and eats very (very) well. Nonetheless, I am completely and
without limit exhausted by the end of each day.
In part I think this is because, thanks to hormones or whatever, at
least 50% of my brain, whatever Orson is doing or not doing, is
incessantly and intensely engaged with him. When he is asleep it says
'has he woken up yet? How long has he been sleeping?
What are you going to feed him when he wakes up? Is he still asleep? Is
he breathing? Did you dress him warmly enough? Has he woken up yet?'
When he is eating it says 'Does he like this meal? Is he eating
enough? Did you warm it up enough? Has he had too many carbs today?
Doesn't he like it? Did you feed him too early? What did he eat earlier?
Should i offer him something different? Am I going
to encourage him to be a fussy eater?Is he choking? Is it too hot? Has
he eaten too much? Is he going to get diabetes?'
Till I sometimes want to rip the top of my skull off and scream 'Enough! Shut up for a second' into the bloody hole.
Wednesday, 11 December 2013
Return-to-work nerves
I’ve more than three months still left to go, but for some
reason I have started getting nervous about my return to work at the end of
March.